Why I Suck

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Yeah... I definitely haven't been around, have I?

I guess it's time for me to start confessing.

(Warning, longish journal ahead.)

Things on my end have gone really downhill since October.

Some drama taking place here made me want to leave for a little while and keep to Tumblr. I won't go into details, but even though it's been a few months since it all happened, I'm still really hurt and it's tough coming back to this account and having to remember it all. It brings back bad memories.

School hasn't been very kind, either. I get bogged down with more work in a weekend than I did last year in an entire week. I don't have time to alternate between dA and Tumblr like I used to do. So, I chose one over the other.

If I have to be really honest with myself, too... This website has been on the decline since last summer. It doesn't feel the same way here that it used to, if that makes any sense. It's too silent. Friends who usually keep up with me aren't really active anymore, and the ones that are still close have moved with me to Tumblr. I can't explain it. The atmosphere there just feels so much... kinder? Mature?

I have wanted to come back so badly. There are still wonderful people here that I love and I am so sorry for being such a poor friend and not staying in contact like I should. I try to log in and message them, but I get too afraid to and end up not doing it. I love you all very much, and you don't deserve to stay in the dark about me. I'm sorry.

TL;DR: I suck at keeping in contact and being a consistent presence because of life and mental stuff, and I'm sorry. I want to try to start uploading things again and being active like I used to. But... I guess that will depend.

Thanks for reading, if you did.
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